I called this blog post the ghost of frienships past because I feel like alot of us have similar experiences with all types of relationships. We end a frienship or romantic relationship and then it hunts us. We constantly analzye every conversation and conflict and wonder if things could have turned out differently, but in most cases they wouldnt have . They wouldnt because even if we did everything differently the other persons intentions, feelings, actions, and reactions would remain the same to a different set of circumstances. One becuase that is the type of person they are and two because it wasn't meant to last. Some relationships are stepping stones or even doors to open our eyes to things that we should have seen to begin with. Things like your worth and your value. Things like your love and your feelings. Things that should have always been held highly and appreciated. Ive learned through this eperience that some relationships are just not worth the fight and the ones that are, are being fought for from both sides because the value is strong, the authenticity is strong, the genuinity is strong and the love is strong.
As I finish writing this post, I feel a huge weight lifted off my chest. I'm letting go of all the anger, all the sadness, and most of the confusion, and I am leaving with understanding and forgivness. Writing this post has helped me put things into perspective. I am not afraid of being vulnerable because it shows that I care and I'm not afraid of caring because it shows that I'm human. Being human means that we hurt, we cry, and we bleed, but it also means that we grow, we heal, and we become stronger. I encourage someone to write about their experience and I hope that sharing my experience can help someone in a similar situtation. I also encourage you all to know your worth and appreciate and value the worth of others because in doing so we make room to receive and share a love like the love God shows us each and every day.
Stay beautiful, stay simple, stay sweet,
Dadi