Today marks a little over a month since Miss Ava has come into our lives. It has been an amazing, but challenging experience so far.
As you can see she is growing beautifully weighing a little over 10 lbs. and 22 inches tall. She doesn't play when it comes to her food. She loves her big sister Eden to pieces and loves engaging in a little girl chat from time to time. Besides sleeping, eating, and pooping, she's starting to show off that cute little dimple (on her left cheek) with that beautiful smile of hers.
Eden absolutely loves being a big sister and she has been such an amazing one. We knew she was ready for a sibling, but didn't know just how ready. She has not shown one once of aggression towards her little "Avaf" ( that's what she calls her). She is constantly gives her hugs and kisses and even helps mommy soothe her from time to time.
Eden absolutely loves being a big sister and she has been such an amazing one. We knew she was ready for a sibling, but didn't know just how ready. She has not shown one once of aggression towards her little "Avaf" ( that's what she calls her). She is constantly gives her hugs and kisses and even helps mommy soothe her from time to time.
As for me, I can honestly say I'm doing good. Not great, not amazing, but good. I am still in aw and amazement that I am the mother of two beautiful girls. I have gone from 240 lbs. to 216 lbs. which makes me 10lbs away from my pre- pregnancy weight and 66 lbs. from my overall goal. I'm not in a rush to diet, I am just taking things one day at a time. Contrary to what some people may think, it has not been easy transitioning from mother of one to mother of two. The ugly truth consist of lots sleep deprivation and guilt
Sleep when the baby sleeps, they say. This sounds simple enough, but throw an active toddler in there and things get a little interesting. Nap time throughout the day is pretty much non existent. There have been beautiful moments where the three of us have all fallen asleep together, but those moments have packed their bags and gone, at least for now.
Sleep when the baby sleeps, they say. This sounds simple enough, but throw an active toddler in there and things get a little interesting. Nap time throughout the day is pretty much non existent. There have been beautiful moments where the three of us have all fallen asleep together, but those moments have packed their bags and gone, at least for now.
Going from one baby needing my constant attention to two has been overwhelming at times. I say this because I have felt an overwhelming feeling of guilt. I confess, I am one of those mothers who doesn't like to her baby crying, I hate the whole self soothing thing. I get super anxious and overwhelmed hearing the whaling screams of my helpless baby. Anyway because of this, I find myself tending to Ava's attention needs just a little bit more these days. This makes me feel extremely guilty because I feel like I'm neglecting Eden's attention needs at times. How could I really enjoy my one on one time with Eden with a screaming baby in the background. I know I am only one person and can only tend to one child's needs at a time, but am I crazy for feeling this way? I have learned that finding ways for Eden to help me with baby, not only gives us an activity to do together, but doesn't make me feel like I'm pushing her to side.
Apart from feeling all those things, I am truly blessed and I am starting to get the hang of things just little more each day. I learn and grow a little more each day. As woman and as mothers we are naturally harder on our selves when it comes to many things. Even though I wish I has four hands and laps, I have to understand that I am not super human. At the end of the day both my girls love and feel loved by their mommy and that's all hat matters.
Apart from feeling all those things, I am truly blessed and I am starting to get the hang of things just little more each day. I learn and grow a little more each day. As woman and as mothers we are naturally harder on our selves when it comes to many things. Even though I wish I has four hands and laps, I have to understand that I am not super human. At the end of the day both my girls love and feel loved by their mommy and that's all hat matters.